2017 - December
12/01
It's December!
Holy shit. Christmas is closing in. We had fall yesterday, now suddenly the snow falls and Santa's prepping his sleigh. The house is full of new curtains and covers. Red and green and gold. Stars in the windows. Boxes in the living room.
I went to a restaurant too. Restaurant Two. Korean/Japanese food. I had a Halloumi burger and it was AWESOME! Maybe the best burger I've ever had. Seriously good, though a somewhat small serving with coleslaw/Kimchi on the side.
I swear the rare glass of wine (Jacob's Creek, before I forget) didn't give greater than normal impressions. It was just great. Happy I went. Need to get out more.
Maybe this December. Holy shit...
12/02
Well yesterday was awesome. I shouldn't just get out more, but I should EAT more when I'm out, too. Tasting new things feels like a new addiction, and what was previously just drinks, or candy, or varieties brought home, is now turning into crafts cooked by others.
And wine. It's more relaxing than magnesium, isn't it? Maybe combined with exercise? Maybe combined with food? Maybe with just the right amount, or just the right ingredients? Either way I felt so relaxed after that dinner... incredible.
Wish they'd fix the stay-logged-in thing here though. It's a bother. Every day.
12/03
Oh man. Tired again. Living my days like in a days. It's winter, right? Depressing time? Something in the air. Something that lingers and bogs and down, and not even with coffee do we truly wake up! Though we switch up the placement of our words as to sound even more poetic, and sometimes it works, and we grow inspired and rise on the tides of vision and beauty... but other times it just feels silly, and we sulk, and sink down, and go through our days in the long dark daze that winter is. Wishing for spring and bliss.
12/04
It's cold. The frost lingers on the ground in the morning, though it's soon tread down by tire tracks, and in the afternoon the wet roads slither through the frost, before it once again freezes, and we walk out in an icy wind for our nightly walk.
It's beautiful, but it would be even more so with snow! When snow falls it gets warmer, yet the snow seems to fall only when it gets warmer, so the snow melts, and so it's always cold when we take our nightly promenade.
But it's worth the icy wind. It's a beautiful walk.
12/05
I'm feeling pretty good about today!
I may not have woken up the earliest. I may not have eaten the best lunch. I may not have exercised much, and it may be dark outside now, and cold inside, and I may be sitting by the computer; feeling both cold outside and dark inside as well... but I feel like things are going good so far!
I haven't been sitting idle. I watched half a movie for lunch, but otherwise I've written blogs in a frenzy, sent packages, paid bills; ticked items off my list.
So far I'm feeling pretty good about today.
12/06
So I thought I'd check a few posts I need to check, but before that I thought I'd write this. So, I'm going to write this, and then I'm going to check those posts, and then I'm going to check my email and NG one last time and then I'm going to go to sleep. And I'm going to do all of this before 11:30. That's the plan.
As I write this I feel like there's no way I'll manage all of that within that particular deadline, just 13 minutes away, but without limits no accomplishments right? Get set...
12/07
The weekend's closing in again, and this week I have one free day before it begins! One day to catch up with all that which has been left undone during the week... or should I say month? Well it's barely started. Year? Semester? The stuff sure has been piling up...
A day isn't nearly enough to plow through that mound of leftover projects, but used well it's a huge help. You can't believe how much you can accomplish in just one day. A good day. You could write a novel. You could record an album. You could post stuff. No pressure at all, but tomorrow is THAT day! That day with potential.
12/08
So much stress. Holy hell there's so much stress. Winter time... you know this mess? You pack in presents, and there you go obsessed! Just buying stuff. Time's too much. Do things you don't need to cause the life's a rush. Just buy and buy. Then time flies by. Then there's more you need to do since you've been idle dry. Money's on a low. Fun is on a high. Time is on a low. Days are flying by. It's so 'Geronimo'!! Yet no more time to smile, wish I could relax now, just for a little while... it's Christmas time.
12/09
These weeks before Christmas always seem like the shortest weeks of the year! So much to do, and so little time... even if that allotted quota is actually probably bigger during this time than during any other time of the year.
More free days. Shorter days. Longer weekends.
At the end of the year there's a whole week-long holiday too! It doesn't compare to the lengths the weekends were during school time, but right now I'm really really really looking forward to it. I think for at least one of those days I'm just going to DO NOTHING. Relax.
Then for the rest of them work my ass off and hopefully finish everything I need to before the year is over and done.
In case time runs out: Happy Holidays in advance.
12/10
Just ONE more day to catch up with! Just ONE more day!
It's dark outside right now. Snowy. Slippery. Icy. It's melting, but slowly.
I sit inside and let my brain run its own race. I've done plenty by the computer, and now all that I really need to do is pack my presents for the weekend voyage. And work twenty minutes from home, as I promised yesterday. All the while I do this I'm backing up my game collection on GOG, and moving it to a larger drive. Larger than life.
First the first, then the second... three's a go.
12/11
I've been thinking about going back to the little Christmas Countdown things I had on my blog during earlier years... but right now there's just no time. No time to tune into the various Christmas calendars that are up online either, to participate in those daily draws and rebates. I feel like I've grown immune to those this year. I have better things to spend my time on.
The temptations to check in on some one specific store, and maybe more than one while I'm at it... they do come around, but just for a round. My presents are packed. I'm ready already.
No more buying.
12/12
Did I mention time just flies lately?
I've been reading about numerology though, and apparently one of my (appreciatively few) flaws is often having too many projects running simultaneously and not getting enough done. They didn't mention if the 'not getting enough done' was due to actually working badly/slowly, or trying to do too much with the time that is available.
I hope it's the latter. Being overly ambitions seems a whole lot better than being disorganized and inefficient. If made me feel better about my lack of time, at least.
I just really need to get better at managing it.
12/13
Thirteen.
Unlucky date, but not an unlucky day at all! I got stuff done. I also ate something strange that had me feeling kinda strange for most of the night... before I took some other stuff to alleviate that strangeness. OK now.
As of today the work week is officially over, and a weekend a bit longer than usual awaits - with a short trip to visit my big brother up in Östersund no less! Should be fun.
Celebrating a little Christmas in advance also means having to fix up a batch of presents in advance, though. Better get to it...
12/14
I've got a day at home today, and though it's already more than half-passed I'm hoping to get a whole lot of stuff done yet! Like fill in a week of forgotten hundred word-long wordings. It's past half-past two as I type this. The minute just flicked and now it's two. So sudden.
I know time flies, but sometimes it feels like time flies faster than it should fly... like a hawk diving down from the sky, only it's not a sky, it's space, and the hawk is out of place. What am I saying? These days...
12/15
If any day was a hectic day... it really wasn't this one.
I took things so easy it was almost depressing, but it wasn't by choice, it was because I had the worst headache I've had in... well, it's been a while. Come to think of it I don't think I've had a real headache in weeks now. They come and go sometimes. I wake up and feel like I might get one, but it fades away. I handle it. No tablets.
Today though I really couldn't handle it. It was hell, and I went to bed four hours early...
12/16
...and rested a bit, and got up, and ate a bit and went to bed, and today it was time for travel!
It was probably a good thing I felt how I felt yesterday, because today I felt great. Not entirely not-tired, but more well-rested than I would have been if I had been by the computer all night, and the train ride to Östersund was a blast. We chatted. Played. Sipped some hot chocolate... and coffee... and tea.
I remember when five hours travel time felt like an eternity, but now it's not even enough to read through the on-board magazine on the train.
Times sure have changed.
12/17
Spent the whole day in Östersund today.
It was our only full day there. Yesterday we came and tomorrow we leave, and though we had and will have most of those days at our disposal (early arrival/late leave) this was the one that really counted. My sister slept most of the day away, but I feel like I made the most of my share!
We ate good. We walked in the wild winter: sparkling snow and sunshine. We played games in the dark. We talked. We had fun. We caught up on new doings and old times. Good day.
12/18
And after a good day: a good night!!
I didn't sleep so well the first one, mainly because the sibling I shared the room with has a habit of going to sleep somewhere around the time when early morning people get up in the morning, but after a night without usually follows a day with, so I got with it.
Big bro & Co were at work most of the morning, but the weather was great and the city was bustling with people and Christmas spirit. We met up in the afternoon and took the train back home again.
Good trip.
12/19
I just gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta write a lot of.
12/20
Christmas...
I remember the times when I used to count down towards the festivities that this season entailed, but where does the time go now?! Really, man, where does it go! What the hell! What the friggin' spectacles! I wish I could talk about something other than my lack of efficiency, because when it's all said and done that must be what it all boils down to: nobody else is talking about time going this fast but me. I don't think I'm that inefficient though. Too many projects. That's gotta be it. I live the lives of many.
Christ, mas time... it would be nice.
12/21
It's the shortest day of the year today!
And yes it has felt pretty short.
I've been to work, then I got back, and now I'm sitting here and once again catching up with a big dose of these (they're supposed to be!) daily writings.
I'm feeling good though, because it's not only the one final day before days once again start to get brighter, but also my last day of work for the year, and a day after a day on which I exercised, and I'm getting things done.
The world may be dark: but I feel warm inside.
12/22
I'm thinking I need to read through my words here some time, to see if maybe over the years I've written something I don't really want to have online... but then again what would that do? I wouldn't be able to delete that entry even if I could, and that's exactly how I want it to be everywhere, online.
You're supposed to think before you post something, and it's depressing how much content gets deleted because the creators no longer relate to what they said, or want to start fresh. Not me. I'm not one of those, I'm just thinking...
12/23
I actually.... stayed logged in this time! :D I think. Issue solved? Hope so. Maybe someone's reading my posts. Someone important...
Christmas is closing in with leaps and bounds now, though looking at the rest of the days I haven't written on yet this month it's incredible to think that they're all FREE. Vacation. A full week and then some. I haven't had anything like this since the summer, and even though I just work part time it feels like a big deal... like even more of a big deal right now than summer, cause this really is a stressful season.
Tomorrow's the big day, and after that... we'll see what happens. Good tidings coming soon.
12/24
Merry Christmas world!
I hope you're having a merry season! I hope you're not only getting, but also giving. I hope you're together with family or friends - whichever you hold closest. I hope you feel warmth and kindness,and generosity, and appreciate what you have, whatever that may be. I hope you're comfortable in your home, and have a home to be in, and that you're happy to be able to spend this time together with the ones you love and cherish.
I wish you all Happy Holidays, whichever it is you celebrate! And if you don't: Happy Days!
Merry Christmas world.
12/25
Christmas passed and now we have rainy days. No snow. No snowy days. Rainy days.
At least there's more time to write these days. I'm home these days. A nephew's coming by for a few days in a few days, but until then I have a couple of free days to do things I've dreamed of doing for a whole LOT of days!
Since the summer ended. Since the year started. Since whatever arbitrary phase of time where I started said project, or thought of said project, but didn't complete it.
Too many projects, and the year's coming to a close fast... hopefully these days will give some perspective and time to prioritize.
I'd like to start the New Year at least somewhat fresh.
12/26
I woke up with an itch in my eye, but I didn't scratch it.
I'm not sure it was even real. Maybe I was dreaming it. Maybe I didn't wake up at all - and when I finally did wake up, around 10 AM, I got up pretty quickly.
I've been sleeping too much these past days, to the point where 10 AM actually feels like an accomplishment. Yesterday it was 11:30, and the day before that it was at least 10:30, and the day before...
I'm not sure, but from now on I'm getting up better. I better.
12/27
I'm still having to log in every day I type my words. Don't know what I was thinking that one day I claimed the opposite - maybe I was so used to logging in I just did so without thinking, and then didn't remember that I had. Tired mornings.
Even though I go to sleep earlier I wake up tired these days. The days just feel so tiresome, lately. I'm at home. I'm on vacation. I take it easy. I don't do too much. I take long walks... still... I'm tired. maybe the ardors of the year amount.
Guess it's the right time to rest up, and hope I get back into the groove soon.
12/28
I've noticed I end a lot of things with 'Good Something'. I end short posts with 'Good Times'. I end movie reviews with 'Good Watch'. I end more everyday reviews/comments with 'Good Stuff'.
I guess it's good they're Good and not Bad - for the most part, but it strikes me that's a bit of a superfluous phrase to end with.
And if I do, why not vary a bit? Why not throw in a Fantastic or Pragmatical or Convoluted instead. Whenever 'Good' can be replaced, by something vocabularicaly enriching.
New words or old words. I think it's a...
Good Idea.
12/29
So today was the day of the Ghost Tour. At Riddarholmen. Södermalm. On a dark, moonlit night, with a guide who played the role of Gideon - Stockholm's oldest phantom.
We gathered under the gates of a dark and brooding church entrance, and at exactly the right time were greeted with a booming voice out of the darkness... and after that it turned into more of a guided tour than an actual 'ghost tour'. Not scary, but fun. Informative. It was a new kind of experience.
I hope my nephew liked it too! That's the main reason he was here.
12/30
My nephew took the train back home today.
We had a blast. We stayed up late nights and slept our days away. We played games, toured the city, ate waffles with sea food, visited a kids park with miniature buildings resembling real ones, and the old Mac computer received a well-due reboot to play one particular old game (Factory) that we hadn't managed to get through before... but today we did! About five minutes before it was time to run off to the train, and my nephew hadn't packed his bag yet...
But we made it!
Good days.
12/31
The New Year. It's here. Already.
There was a time when I was truly exhilarated about this change of days, and when each one felt like a new opportunity, and a shove in the right direction, and like one big reset buttons that allowed you to make all things good again and start fresh... but this year I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I wasn't done with the last year yet, nor was I done with that one the year before, and before that...
It all piles up so fast, and here I am, at the crossroads.
