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December 1, 2022

I couldn't type this up on the first of the month at all!

Wonder if it's a timezone thing. Wonder if it's a bug. Wonder if it's a thing with how the previous month had just thirty days, and the script might've accounted for thirty-one? Whatever the issue was it didn't seem important enough to email anyone about, so I waited a day, and here I am now. Writing again. Feeling brighter again. Time for all-nighter again...

Retrospectively, yes. I took one yesterday. I hope to not repeat said misstep today but... where's my motivation.

I need to get back on track...

vecember 2, 2022

Had some mango panna cotta today. Wonder if you're supposed to capitalize those words. It was good. It was really good really. I feel like I should've bought more - they were on sale - but deserts aren't healthy and I've been feeling hella unhealthy overall lately, so I decided no.

NO I say. NO MORE panna cotta! NO!

Not today. And no chocolate either. And no chips. And no soda. But just maybe some seaweed snacks anyway. Maybe just a spoon of marmalade too. Ginger and sugar mmmmmm.

My self-discipline is seriously seriously low right now.

I say motivation but discipline is the problem.

December 3, 2022

Almost up at twenty million published words on this site...

It dwarves my own accomplishments elsewhere, but it's still pretty cool that I've managed close to a tenth of that on my own. :) If I stepped my game up I could potentially outwrite all writers here. Pull some all-nighters yeah...

Quantity stopped being my ambition a while back though, so hopefully the remaining eighteen million words I'm working on take the form of valuable contributions too, not just rabble scrabble. Dabble dabble. I need to haggle smartphone price and bag some tags y'all.

Anyway it's a good day. Up earlier.

December 4, 2022

May the fours be with you!

Oh wait wrong month. It's the cold one now. Tingle sensation as if a Star Wars persona was lifting you up using those mysterious powers of the cosmos, but not when they're supposed to. Not when you'd wittily append a 'May I' before their celebrated display of universal force.

I don't know what I'm typing really. I have a cup of coffee infront of me, but I'm too tired for it to have much effect. Read somewhere that you need to wait two hours before your morning dose to avoid the afternoon crash.

Might try that some time...

December 5, 2022

So my cold's gone, and that's cool.

I was at the office today again, and that's even cooler.

Even though we have heaters.

There's just something about the rooms there. A certain chill. A sense of cold even when you can feel the warm air streaming towards you. My feet sweat but my arms shiver. The cold permeates the walls, and the warmth dissipates quickly.

They should probably do something about all that. It can't be efficient heating up the room when you still feel cold.

But I have a cool job now; at least I will all winter.

Cool.

December 6, 2022

Played a lot of Worms today.

It's strange though. Just a week or two ago I was hooked on that game - I played the single player deathmatch mode to oblivion, over and over, trying to garner ten consecutive wins at the highest level, and then I guess I got a bit bored with it.

I've been playing GTA SA again instead most recently, and when my cousin came over today to play some WWP I think I'd actually have preferred trying some other game. Some racing maybe... it's interesting how interests come and go. So briefly.

Intermissions in life's steady entertainment stream.

December 7, 2022

The podcasts are starting to take over.

I want to listen to Lex, I want to listen to Jocko; I'm still keeping up with a couple Team Coco podcasts and Steve-O's Wild Ride, but I don't feel the lure as much. They don't feel as genuine as these others. It seems there are stages to the experience, and though I would like to catch up with Rogan a bit too, it's just no longer the most captivating one.

Entertaining maybe sure, but I feel I've gone beyond that. I'm at the enlightenment level now. And Lex... might be the currently best one in the game.

December 8, 2022

I woke up from pleasant dreams today. The sun shining outside, yet not too brightly through the curtain. It was 11 AM - I'm not usually happy waking up that late - but I felt rested and ready for the day today, so I shook off that particular disturbance pretty easy.

After this I'm about to write some Christmas cards for the US.

The last date to send if you want them to arrive before Christmas is actually the first of December.I'm late. But if I throw in a little 'Happy New Year' too...

Time to do the dues anyhow! Good day.

December 9, 2022

Finally went out for the 'Swedish fika' I had promised my sister back in... a while back. On her Birthday. Last of October. But then when we started planning a date for it I was off to Warsaw, and got a cold right after, and time it rolls so...

We had some cappuccino and a croissant today anyway, and it was nice! Free lunch right before it. Quick tour of the shops; a little taste-testing and then right back home again before the ticket expired.

Commuting's starting to become expensive over here, so you'd best time trips well.

Good day.

December 10, 2022

Christmas markets.

I haven't been that fond of them before. I haven't been that frequent a goer. I've spent my time on other things instead - like sitting by the computer - though there was a brief period of years where I actually did my best to decorate my room for the occasion too. That time is gone. The time is gone. Literally.

But I'm making an effort to get into the Christmas market thing instead, so we went to two of them today, participated in a lottery and ate some chocolate and bought some honey. Good walk; good interactions.

That's that Christmas spirit after all.

December 11, 2022

My sister came over for the second of Advent today, and we had some Swedish fika again. Or 'fika' as we call it. Here in Sweden. As is tradition. On both the Advent-agous days and pretty much all other days, though of course for Advent the ceremony's a bit more sacred. A bit more sweets and a bit more candlelight.

Had a good time again. Fetched some packages. Did some dues. Am still playing GTA SA up till late night too, though not quite as late today cause tomorrow work awaits...

Feeling that stress but also: Christmas spirit. It's nice.

December 12, 2022

Ugh, tired again... I don't think I was up too late. Might not sleep enough. Might be too cold in the room? We're saving on warming since electricity costs are skyrocketing recently. Maybe I'm just a little too stressed and worried to properly recoup...

Also a little nervous I'll catch a cold (again, if that'd be the case) before one of the more notable events of the holiday, like the dinner at work this Wednesday, or that thing with my sister on Friday, or with relatives on Saturday, or the actual Christmas festivities next week.

Looking to be a real busy week this one...

December 13, 2022

I missed a bundle of days here the last week! Finna get back to it now. Times have been stressful but not so stressful I wouldn't have had time to write a bit, but I haven't, for some reason *cough*GTA SA*cough*...

A lot of other dues too. Busy times leading up to Christmas, but I have been playing that one game quite a bit lately, and it's been FUN. And slightly disappointing. You can't relive your childhood memories. It's a strange mix of nostalgia and this-ain't-quite-like-I-remembered-it...

On the plus it really is a solid game though. Just the graphics haven't aged the best.

December 14, 2022

Work work work... no not today... but still, sort of.

I've been fetching things; I've been doing things; I've been trying to find the motivation to record some voice lines I REALLY need to get done soon - but just can't seem to get to! And it's really getting on my nerves lately. Because time is running away fast and I REALLY need to get those lines recorded. I REALLY need to prioritize better. I really am NOT procrastinating, but really... what's wrong with my sense of importance and time? Why can't I get better at doing what needs be done first first?!

Maybe tomorrow.

December 15, 2022

We had a Christmas dinner at work today.

Journeyed to Herman's, an old and well-known vegan restaurant with the self-proclaimed 'best view in the city', tables in a glazed terrace atop cliffs overlooking the water and Stockholm on the opposing side of the inlet, with the theme park towers of Gröna Lund maybe most prominent.

It was a great meal, and filling. Barely had room for dessert: a ginger and orange RAW food ball.

Good food. Good company. I think I even managed to socialize properly for a while... it was a good time, and I'm back home playing GTA SA again too.

Good day.

December 16, 2022

Tripping out at Skansen today, looking at the cute little critters that scurry around behind glass walls in the kid's area; walking through the bustling Christmas market square with fire pits strewn out here and there and thick smoke and steam drifting from the outdoor kitchens - a group of more warm-blooded people dancing around a well-lit tree by a stage where a female Santa sings old songs in a festive pace accompanied by a band that seem overqualified for the job.

The mood's just perfect, though it's cold and the darkness settles quick and my sister wants to leave... I'll be back though! Next year...

December 17, 2022

Y'know, parties and such, festivities, things like that... why do they eat so much time in preparation? Why am I not just ready to roll right out the gate? Why do I even care to shave? Why not have a heard that inhibits excessive preparation? Why not have goto clothes that are just waiting for such events? Why not have exercise and food made such a routine you don't even need to think about what/if to eat anything prior or how/if to lift a little extra as to up your energy before you leave?

So unnecessary. Should always be ready to.

Party.

December 18, 2022

No morning meditation today, though I'm still going strong with the cold showers! Though if I read an article about a journalist who'd taken cold showers all year and felt like the water in Peru in particular was like glacial-level cold, straight from the mountaintops, and I wonder if my cold showers really are 'cold' showers in comparison. Maybe they're more like cool, a little chilly, just beyond lukewarm...

They do me good anyway! After these words I'll be catching up on some long overdue blogposts, then head out for a walk, and then keep going.

Good day so far.

December 19, 2022

Tiresome day today...

I'd hoped to do more, but I got home late in light sleet and darkness, ate too much dinner, took a walk on slippery roads and wound down a bit, and watched a Ken Block documentary on the rally season of 2022.

I didn't even know who Ken Block was a week ago, before I stumbled upon Travis Pastrana's vacation shred Gymkhana 2022 - and learned that Ken had done it up till then. I knew of Travis before, but it seems he's not the only wholesome dude in the business!

Ken's 2022 season? He failed. But tried.

I'm a do so too.

December 20, 2022

I'm doing good things today!

Was in a rut yesterday. I mean I was... tired. Down. Not satisfied with the work day, nor the home time, nor anything. Maybe I was just tired.

A good night's rest cures all.

At least it cured this, and today I feel better. I'm up in decent time, I'm going through things, and after the walk we're about to head out on in a minute I figure I WILL go through some of the more important dues that I need to...

They've been waiting too long. Voice lines. Sorry Mejson. My motivation... is not working properly.

December 21, 2022

Yesterday went... so so.

I started efficient, but didn't go go. All the way. All the day. Kept it cool till down fall the gray, on the afternoon and with that resumes a tiredness that keeps all at bay... but I did get stared! And I wrote. And reviewed some artists. I wonder if I lived in the sunshine, would I then maybe go the farthest?

I think the world's pretty messed up but I don't want to be an alarmist. Best just grow sustainable crops. Keep plowing, keep farming. Keep going, no harm in. Letting arms thin. And arms: buffen up.

First arms: guns.

December 22, 2022

Got a cold again! Just in time for Christmas again!

I'm not super happy about this, but I'm not feeling as bad as I thought I would today either, so I'm not super down about it either.

Think I just had five hours of sleep, I was tossing and turning until around 5 AM, but I'm up, and I have the initial sniffles, and a throat phlegm that seems to get better already, and I had some fresh-baked gluten-free Christmas bread for breakfast with apricots and raisins...

It ain't so bad. I'm a use this opportunity to rest up.

Just unfortunate timing.

December 23, 2022

Had 41 notifications waiting on me on NG this morning! Good friend ElectricAngel had apparently marathoned through my old art and left some, which was nice, always a good way to start the morning. :)

In other news I've still got that cold, but I'm still taking cold showers and still drinking coffee and I think I'll venture out on a walk today too, if only just a short one...

Don't sleep so well when I'm inside all day. And not totally out of it, I suppose. Whatever virus I'm dealing with I still have energy. It's not all bad.

Toodles!

December 24, 2022

Merry Christmas! 🎄✨❤

Not sure if emojis work here... let's give it a shot. I don't think I've tried before.

I am currently still sick and tired, but all set for celebrations anyway! Packed all presents, took a short (and slow) walk in the wonderful winter world we currently have outside, and I'm still consuming nutrients at a some-may-say alarming rate, though I don't think I'm going over any important thresholds

I feel a bit more tired than I did yesterday though. A bit more clogged. Last phase of the virus, hopefully. Shall refrain from sugar today but otherwise party on!

Have a good one.

December 25, 2022

I woke up at 1 PM today!

A little late ain't it... I hope I'm not totally messing up my circadian rhythm.

I suppose it's a sign that I partied too much yesterday. Or at least that expectations took a toll. Maybe taking two walks in a day after not taking any for the previous two wasn't the best call either, maybe I should've skipped some of those chocolate-covered raisins, though they were low on sugar...

We didn't party too hard really. Just ate good, opened presents, walked with presents to a neighbor... I realize I'm not totally recouped though.

Merry Christmas.

December 26, 2022

I'm up real early today.

Did I say I was up early at ten earlier this week? Pfft. It's not even ten right now! I was up at 8:30 - can you believe that?

Honestly my bedtime routines lately have been getting horrible.

I've been up till 3 AM more than one night the past week. On Wednesday I was up till 5... though I still got up around ten then.

In part it's bad discipline, but in part... a little winter depression I think. Stress and gray days. Tiredness. Sickness. All things combined. I don't want to go to bed but...

Just want to sleep.

December 27, 2022

It's home from work day! I mean work from home day. I mean I'm alone day. I mean I feel so fade... tired... just want to lie down on a sofa or find some soul mate but keep on going cause good work pays! Still have that cold it's just one of those days.

And fortunately my boss was OK with me working in my own space, and I'm happy for that. The commute's three hours.

I'd rather write a speck and then rap. Or just... lie down and play some Advance Wars. That's my Advent chore. Yeah. Let's go...

December 28, 2022

This year is ticking down fast.

I wish I had time to reminisce a bit on the past, but it doesn't seem I will. Not this year at least. Not in sufficient quantities to truly dig deep into my needs and wants and figure things out once and for all. But when you have time you waste it, and you have too little you push yourself to figure things out after all, so maybe it'll all work out, just gotta kill this cold and keep moving.

And try to rest up a bit too, even if time doesn't allow it.

December 29, 2022

Just three days to the new year, and I have a headache. What a waste.

I'm still chasing the day the best possible way though; getting stuff done, even if that implies such seemingly non-essential endeavors as watching movies.

But I review them too. Today it was Hard Target, iconic action from the nineties with JCVD and plenty of other recognizable faces, though their names I have not memorized.

I'll get some more essential things done too though, I'm sure. For now the pain that beats in my head distracts me, so maybe I'll get to one more movie first...

December 30, 2022

I'm in a better place today.

No headache, and I slept well. I woke up thinking my mom had tried to wake me up earlier - that someone was a phone - but that she told them I'd call back and I fell asleep again, but it turns out she hadn't called at all! That was a dream, and so I feel even more fully-rested.

How do you feel a sense of accomplishment?

You do the things that you need to do. The things that bother you. First. Sometimes you just can't, but I have a few dues today I will.

Peace.

December 31, 2022

Final day of the year.

I feel a slight tinge of fear and uncertainty, heading into this new phase of days. But also hope. A little stress - since I don't feel done with my dues yet - but I hope that'll pass before the year is over, because I plan on accomplishing some of them now.

First up a hundred words! Then update my parallel own-site archive of 'em. Then get through a few blogs and start contemplating resolutions for this grand new phase of days...

I'm sure it'll be a good one. Well not sure but... hopeful. Willfull.

Happy 2023!

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