2023 - March

March 1, 2023

It's working this time! The first one's showing up on the first! I'm writing as it starts, with hearts and souls and starters for the art that's on my platter - it's best to be here early and save my time for latter, though I have spend way too much on random artist reactions...

Those artist reactions, seriously. They're addicting. I never thought I'd fall into trends as such but here I am, and I'm actually enjoying them... whilst racking up more and more in my watchlist and feeling I really have better things to do than go through those all...

March 2, 2023

We're up! Up in the morning. Early. With a lot of phlegm. I wonder if it'd be wise to hit the gym today...

I'm hitting it though, I am. I wrote it on my wall calendar. I missed a whole week prior to this one. I'm getting those days back. I'm catching up and I am doing MORE days this month than the monthly days - I'm making up for the days I missed last month too. They aren't THAT many. It should be possible. Soon as I'm in a bit better shapes...

I'm getting there. Routine thing though. It's faltering.

March 3, 2023

Promised myself when I was going to bed yesterday that I wouldn't listen to any more reaction videos today - they've been stealing my time lately. Utterly and completely.

I had a few of them bookmarked, and a bundle in my Watch Later list... removed a bundle, but I couldn't keep away entirely! Listening to Stevie Knight's reaction on Crown Me with Hopsin right now, and it's so dope. I'm addicted. I don't know what it is! Seeing charismatic people give people I'm a fan of recognition? Just remembering dope songs with them?

It'll be just a few though today, promise...

March 4, 2023

May the fourth be... wait it's March now! My bad. Not yet. I'll get back to ya.

I'm looking forward to the new Fast & Furious movie too, coming that same month. And a trip to Poland, possibly also that same month. And finally summer vacation! It starts ALSO that same month. At the very end of it.

There's so much on my tray at the mo. It's kind of cray yeah you know? But I can't be contained I will blow. Up like the flames that don't fold with a rage out control.

Yeah! It's a good day today. Cya.

March 5, 2023

How do you sever connections with people who aren't healthy for you, without making them feel bad about it...

I've been pondering this for a while now.

There's one specific person who messages me a lot; who takes up a large part of my social media time. I need that time. I have things to do, I have a future to build, I feel like the years run out of my hand, and want to save where I can... and yet I feel an obligation to respond to people who need my response. Even if they never stop.

What do.

March 6, 2023

The train man, the train, again, man...

They have staff shortage now, so they're cutting out certain departures. Most notably the one I was planning to go with. So I'm home for another half an hour before I get to work, and will be at work for another half hour before I get home. I'd rather have slept in a half hour more.

At least they posted a notification before I'd made my way to the train station though! At least I can make use of this time and not just wait in the bitter cold.

F MTR though. No respect for this company.

March 7, 2023

Let's see if I can keep listening to a Danske Bank economy lecture on how to best dispose of and distribute your savings, and write this little thing in parallel.

I'm trying to be efficient today, cause I'm still in that reaction video rabbit hole. I can't seem to stop watching them. They eat my time.

Plus I'm tired, a snowstorm's potentially rolling in in another hour or so and I need to auction off some old C-Vitamin...

What this has to do with anything? I'm not sure. Learning about interest on interest. Interesting. Should focus. I'll see y'all tomorrow.

March 8, 2023

Oh my... snow levels today are abundant! The wind makes them whirl and drift and seem larger than they are as well.

My boss is stuck at home - he didn't manage to get the car out before the snow blocked his path - and I'm sitting at home here also. Working from home. It was always the plan today - fortunately I'm allowed 50% of my weekly slice of work time at a distance, but I'm thoroughly happy I didn't have to get to the office today...

There's no way I would've made it. Without hour-long delays, at least.

Cozy at home...

March 9, 2023

Ahh the days...

The smell of fresh-baked bread drifts up the stairs, the sun shines outside, the snow's heavy on the ground... and the trains are stalling. They have staff shortage. They're canceling departures on short notice. This morning they just hade FOUR commuter trains in transit - of what's usually something like... twenty? Fifty? More? Not sure.

And I have not just one but three movies booked at the cinema. In Stockholm. Which requires a train ride in.

I do go a little overboard with things, I know, but I need to take that train today. Hope they start running proper soon...

March 10, 2023

Headache today...

Seems to be a bad one, but of course I'm trying to battle it off, as usual with a cold shower first, plenty of water, coffee and a banana. It might work, not sure, it's mauling but shifting...

I think my not having any coffee yesterday afternoon might have something to do with this. That and watching three movies in a row (at the cinema) with but one bottle of water between them... came home a little dehydrated. Ate a late dinner. Seems my body's reminding me I need to take better care of it now...

Finna be a rough day.

March 11, 2023

Gym today! And I feel great. As expected.

I have about twenty minutes before it's walk time, and I think I'll make better use of these particular twenty minutes than I maybe have any other set of minutes in my life thus far. Maybe.

I'm doing this, then I'm writing another thing, then I'm moving over some photos to the computer to finish up an ad for this speaker I'm selling... maybe.

How much can I manage in twenty minutes? We shall see. I'm off to a good start. Quick; maybe not good art. But it feels good y'all.

Efficient.

March 12, 2023

I'm hitting the cinema today. I mean I am REALLY hitting the cinema!

I went in and watched three movies this Thursday, and another three today, and with that I'll have earned enough points on the campaign that our local cinema group is currently running to give me five free movie tickets - to use as I wish in a span or two years or so after this.

Of course I am paying for the tickets today, so nothing's free, but all in all it'll be like ten movies at half price when it's all over... so more movies.

Get it.

March 13, 2023

Got an error message when I was about to login and write my daily words over at 750words.com...

I think I'll take that as an omen.

I'd have just about twenty minutes to finish my words for the day, and that ought be enough but... what if I run into other issues? What if the site bugs out? What if I lose my stream? I'd scheduled today for leave since I'm busy but... I could technically have made it after all.

Oh well. tomorrow's a new day. I'm tired. My nephew's coming in soon. Looking forward but... sure is late.

March 14, 2023

Hey! Good morning!!!

I need to go out on a walk. I need to get my energy flowing. I was feeling pretty g damn tired until... I realized I'd forgotten my cold shower for the day! Coffee doesn't help much, but it keeps the headaches at bay. Fresh air and momentum wakes you additionally. Step two of a good morning routine - I'd be at the gym but I'm just too tired...

When I'm done with the upcoming trip I promise I'll be better at it. I'll work out every other day. Don't want to catch a cold now.

Let's walk.

March 15, 2023

My nephew's visiting, and my oh my... when he visits things take time.

It's 3 PM at the moment. Over. And we've yet to eat lunch or take a walk or anything. We've been working with a website that I'd estimated would take under an hour... that took three. The sunshine's been shining outside and it's just starting to sink, and to think this could've been a day I caught a tan, damn man...

It's alright though. I get paid for the website work, and there's time to spare before the day's done and gone.

Let's make the most of it.

March 16, 2023

Man I'm tired...

We stayed up late again. It was 2 AM before we were finished - comparing Apple interfaces between the new and old, and getting all nostalgic and sentimental in our tired states... after playing a few rounds of Factory on my old PowerMAC and unfortunately failing on the very last level.

This kicks you back a few stages, and at that point it was too late to keep going, so we partook in aforementioned interface nostalgia sessions instead.

Had a good time! And I'll see him again next week. My nephew that is. Good times. Good work. Goodnight.

March 17, 2023

Something's up with my tonsil again...

I wonder if I've managed to scratch it somehow. Or get a sore - maybe due to the gluten I've been eating recently - I don't tolerate it well - even with additional enzyme tablets.

For about a week now it's been a little painful to swallow, and I've started brushing my teeth better, and taking care of the oral hygiene I probably need to if I want to get rid of this disturbance as fast as possible...

But it still takes time. It's not pleasant. I'm more tired than usual but... I sleep well.

Good night.

March 18, 2023

I wonder if the Litespeed cache on my website is sometimes draining server resources a bit much; making it slow and unresponsive...

Sometimes when I edit a post multiple times the loading process just goes haywire. It's like the connection disappears for a while, and nothing happens... but moments later it's back to normal again.

Could it be that?

It's not such a big issue it affects my workflow enough for me to do something about it, though. And a cache is good to have. Loading times are quicker. Especially when everything is cached; when there's no editing going on...

March 19, 2023

Sitting here with a banana.

It seems like everything's falling into place today. I have my card ready; I have my poem ready - I just need to glue them together. I have my backpack ready, I just need to back it. My sister's coming over for tea, and my buddy's coming over for dinner, and in half an hour I'm going for a walk with mom. Already had a haircut.

I'm now writing this. Sipping coffee. Feeling good.

Still do think I have some sort of tonsil infection going on, but there's not much to do about that... onwards!

On words.

March 20, 2023

Twenty twenty, the day before the travels, before the long trip I've been both exalted and weary about for the past week or so... it finally came!

Been at the office as usual. Met my sister on the way home. Someone bought a kilo of C-vitamin from me via an auction site and I need to at least pack it before I leave so that hopefully some family member can send it while I'm gone, and another user apparently had an issue with a movie ticket I'd sold them... all things have to happen at once huh?

Ah well. Good day tomorrow.

March 21, 2023

And I'm off! I'm off and on. I'm on at dawn. I fall at night. I stall like pawn. Can't move to side. Can't off my yawn. Can just abide. And carry on. Like putrid thoughts and ideologies! I look out through my Hubble but no Hobbits see. Just a lot of humans and a lot of greed. How can I claim to live and still have all I need? In this world life is crazy. Pick your daisies though. Live on all you feed and may that be: poetry: some inner beauty unbeknownst. Wake up early morning and bake scones.

March 22, 2023

I've been sleeping on a bunk bed. Lower level. The frame's not very stable. As soon as you turn it shakes. My nephew slept on the upper bunk and I on the lower, and at night we turned - him more than I - at least as far as I was concerned during my waking states - and in the morning we got up regardless...

Woke with a headache but I managed to get rid of it with a cold shower and coffee! Of which I am pretty proud.

We're about to head out on some great adventures now.

Tännforsen, here we come...

March 23, 2023

The snow-capped mountains of Åreskutan, that reach high into the sky, beyond what your eye can perceive, that climb further than you first believe, with buildings almost entirely encapsulated in crimson; cryogenic snow, almost like the blue ice at the bottom of Tännfallet...

It's pretty spectacular!

Felt a bit strange being up there without skis though. Not considering I didn't have any but more so that everybody else did - and I can't ski like that. I can manage to plow through the woods at best. I can manage to balance on even ground. I've tried a few slopes..

Sure is beautiful though.

March 24, 2023

I'm kinda tired... yet strangely awake considering how late I went to bed last night. I'm back at work and going at it like a crack addict. I'll fix those cracks. Have some cement. Whack. Have it.

For supper I think we'll have some soup, for dinner we had pancakes, and for some reason my dad just seems tired and bitter these days, more so than before... is it an age thing? I wonder what he thinks about. How would he rather live his life. Not sure.

I hope we make the best of this summer though.

Brother's busy. Lots to do.

March 25, 2023

A drop of water from a toothbrush fell on my head as I leaned towards the mirror... I don't think that's ever happened before.

I've certainly had droplets of water fall on my head before, but never before from a toothbrush. Never before from one I wasn't holding, at least. It seemed such an odd phenomena it was worth typing about.

Is it a sign? A tiding of things to come? A premonition of sorts? An omen for falling droplets of water that may incur during the walk I'm aboutst to take in but an hour now?

We shall see...

March 26, 2023

I left Åre this Thursday, afternoon. On Friday my brother's girlfriend apparently fell and hurt her shoulder... they were there to celebrate her 50th Birthday too.

I'm glad I wasn't there when it happened, but of course I'd rather it hadn't happened at all.

Feel bad for her. Imagine being at the halfway point of your life; dealing with all the emotions the celebrations of such a meritable age entails... and you injure yourself. More. She already has back issues and chronic pain.

Other problems seem lesser suddenly... I hope she recoups; gets better quick.

Such an unfortunate end to that vacation.

March 27, 2023

Was a little nervous at work today.

Hours are potentially getting reduced. Last week the boss announced it. Finances are troubling. We need to upgrade the site in a lot of ways, yet we don't have the budget for it. If I wouldn't be able to work more than one day a week there's no way I'd be able to keep up...

But it was alright! We'd made a few more sales. The plan is I'll keep going at the two-days-a-week pace after all, for the foreseeable future, and we'll see how it goes...

Maybe things will get better.

Maybe.

March 28, 2023

Headache today.

I'd hoped that tagline would be 'Gym today'. But no way. Not when I'm like this. It's possible I could've fought it out and maybe chased the headache away, but if I didn't manage it wouldn't gotten worse by exercise. Way worse. I don't want to risk it. I'm trying to get things done by the computer instead; in more peaceful ways.

Gym tomorrow though? I hope!

It snowed a lot yesterday too, and I would've liked to shovel more today. Someone managed the parking before me. Probably good. Probably would've felt like shit after that too.

Tomorrow...

March 29, 2023

Currently listening to a Shannon Curry on the Lex Friedman podcast.

Enlightening.

I wish Twitter was more like Twitter was in the old days - where you could just post something as simple as that. Tell the world what you're doing. Suggest things passively. Engage with others over mutual interests, more so than finding a conflict of opinions that you can banter out.

I need to get to the gym. Need to exercise. Need to move. Didn't get there today either - didn't sleep and wake up early enough and now it's work time.

Oh well. I'm learning. Tomorrow: I'm moving around.

March 30, 2023

Big plans today.

I skipped my routine morning shower. The cold one. I wonder if this choice will come back to bite me in the behind - I haven't skipped one in ages now - but I felt low and time and discipline and so... it happened. I'm sitting here with a cup of coffee but without that familiar sensation of post-accomplished cold focus.

I do have discipline though; that's why I skipped the shower. No time.

But that in itself shows a lack thereof.

I'll be up a little earlier instead tomorrow; handle things like I know I'm supposed to.

Cooly.

March 31, 2023

I stayed up almost until 5 AM yesterday. Playing Golden Sun.

With a reasonable amount of sleep I would've stayed in bed till past twelve, but no, I was up in normal time. Around 10:30. Helped out with the customary house-cleaning, walked to the shop and fetched a package, plowed through correspondence, writing and reviews...

I'm a little perplexed. Usually I'm tired. I don't feel tired. I tried some fermented black carrot juice yesterday, and coconut water today. Is that the secret? How do I keep this. Going.

No gym today but cold shower... I feel empowered by that too.