Time just flies away, this month has been rather monotonous, not a day not at the same pace, still my cold passed, ankle sprain, the challenge fast and vast head pain. Amongst:

- GTA 1 (gathered all remaining mods/files/links/patches/videos/tutorials still available online, packed together for easy future usage)
- GTA 2 (gathered all remaining mods/files/links/patches/videos/tutorials still available online, packed together for easy future usage)
- GTA 3 (initiated mastermod, collected group of voice actors to remake all radio station/ingame sound, retextured large parts of the game, it will be called "Liberty")
- GTA London 1961 (gathered all remaining mods/files/links/patches/videos/tutorials still available online, packed together for easy future usage)
- GTA London 1969 (gathered all remaining mods/files/links/patches/videos/tutorials still available online, packed together for easy future usage)
- GTA Advance (played it through, downloaded anything I could find related to it, packed it all together for easy future usage)
- GTA Vice City (initiated mastermod, laid to rest until I get the GTA 3 done, however)
- GTA San Andreas (modded it until my computer couldn't handle any more, future modification will have to wait until I get a new PC)
- GTA Liberty City Stories (my PC can't handle it)
- GTA Vice City Stories (my PC can't handle it)
- GTA 4 (my PC can't handle it)
- GTA Etc (20-30 other mods tested and played through, great stuff, but I don't have the time or enjoyment anymore to go through more of them)
- School Work

Amongst other things. I've been watching movies, reading books, walking around, noticing how all of a sudden I feel much healthier, probably due to the intake of less contaminating artificial substances. The challenge didn't go perfectly though, some foods consumed without knowing about the artificial substances that therein lay, a few frozen vegetables eaten, ate pasta once without thinking while out at a restaurant, and who knows what they put in their food anyway, but it was a nice healthy ray of gray indeed. My craving for candy just about vanished, I don't feel like eating sweets now, not at all, so that's a +1 for something.  I got myself an electric guitar, a boxing bag, a blow gun, have been to some interesting events, reached some visionary online goals, created two large poetry collections in sound only, among other things. Otherwise, nah, fun things have happened, but February is still the dullest month of all years.

When nothing seems to work, when nothing seems to go my way, I had better get to work, and do something with my useless day.
Turn it around, spin it in ground, get it to stay, put it on its feet, stash it away, let it portray, let it grow roots, let it hail.
When nothing seems to function, when nothing seems to be on track, then I seem to make assumptions, without taking my senses back.
Grab them back then, into my head again, fill my cranium with wonderful motivation, fill it with hope, fill it with colors, fill it with bright, white, light.
Let the dull grey stumble away under the clouds, and be careful not to voice my accusations out loud, just let the chaos fade, let it go away.
Turn back to front, turn front to back, stops just fencing defensive, go to attack, try the turmoil, taste the array, stay there in touch, let the truck stay.
When nothing seems worth mentioning, when time seems all but frozen, when the world is cold and grey and a puddle looks like an ocean.
Don't melt down into that puddle, muddled by emotion, stay sincere, stay convinced and fill yourself with devotion, towards.
Something that works, something that spins, something that goes, something that wins, something that flows, something that brings.
Hope to this world that the gods seem to forsake, since so long ago.

If I have sinned it was never without
A speck of hope distant fear or doubt
If I have whined it was never in place
So please wipe that dusty grin away

If I have spun I was dizzy when done
If I have won I was vicious to win
But overall my actions mean nothing
If I can't stay true to my wisdom