Arr the sense of satisfaction you may briefly experience were you to fully commit yourself to cleaning up leftover dues in the year that's been, and allow for a fresh start so supremely clean and sparkly once the new ones comes a running?
I didn't manage that. Not at all. I still have PMs, I still have email correspondence, I still have unrevised blogs both posted and unposted that I've been meaning to plow through and better polish, and other dues, audio cues, ideas and dreams and causeries on the news... so many undone dues!
But I still have a cold don'tchaknow, so at least I have some excuse as to why I'm not done with everything.
I still get stuck in those random conversations leading up to the New Year too. I get stuck in everything. I'm stuck. I gotta get moving. So without further ado let's move to the resolutions...
But first, once again I'd like to remind myself of my mantra, repeated a few years prior now; one I want to embody to the point it requires no further reminder: Don't wait, but don't haste. Don't hesitate. Don't stall, don't fall, don't all. Don't say "yes" if you stress. Don't do if you are not supposed to. But mostly, a 'can't do' won't do: think instead of what you could do. Be good too.
That's how I wish to live. How I want to be. That's the A, but onto the BC!
This year I vowed to...
1. Get a stable secondary income, beyond my day job.
I didn't want to rely on any one thing too much, and I wasn't super happy with my day job, nor super confident that it'd last much longer.
For some time now I think I've subconsciously been wanting to move on, but I've been unwilling to. This in part because I feel like I'd be betraying my boss in the midst of financially uncertain times, when more prosperous times for the company may be on the horizon, and I might contribute to our getting there. In part also because it's comfortable. Because it's easier to stay than to move, and in truth maybe my loyalty is more a result of the second than the first part.
I'm not sure if I convince myself that it's a pretty good job too, or if I really believe it... I think it is. I'd be hard-pressed to find an alternative with the same benefits in regard to flexible hours, and part-time days that at least theoretically let me pursue my passions on the side. But I'm not using these benefits to my best benefit...
But did I get a stable secondary income this year? No. I've sold a few weight vests at a good profit margin, and a larger number of movie tickets at lesser profit margin, and I think I picked up one freelance gig. But that's about it, and I can't see how that'd qualify. There has been certain secondary income but it's all but stable...
I do plan to keep going with this though. I plan to experiment with different revenue streams until I find something that's right for me. Something that can become somewhat systematic; that I can fall back on and expand if need be. I'm pretty confident I could get something proper going here if I just take the time it requires to start something.
2. Put out a finished body of audio unrelated to the Inktober verses, be that an album or mixtape.
Nope. I've put out another Inktober mixtape, properly mixed and mastered and all - and I'm proud of it, but that's it. And then I did Inktober again.
I wanted more. Somehow every autumn I find my motivation just goes right out the window, I grow tired and glum, and come spring there's too much other stuff going on! Then comes summer and off to the farm we go, and sow and plow. Excuses, I know, but this is something I really do struggle with. Motivation. Should probably find a resolution to remedy this...
3. Buy property or land.
I did say 'Anything goes here, however small' on this one, and so yes, I have this year actually attained a piece of land I can truly call my own, though it measures but a meager meter. Mission accomplished. :) I am actively looking for more though! I have little financial surplus available for such investment - and I want to make it count, so count on this to possibly take a while, but with property prices currently on the decline it's not impossible something suitable will come around next year...
4. Participate in a demonstration for human rights and democracy.
I could've done this one so easily back in January. There was a big thing going on then, I planned on going but... something came in the way.
After that the motivation to accomplish this particular goal fizzled out a bit. I've signed petitions, I've plugged important things on the blog... I think? But no demonstration yet no. Currently I have no plans to attend one, but if a similar opportunity presents itself again I shall make an effort.
5. Make my current cellphone subscription free.
Nooope, not all the way there yet. I was down at 30 SEK/month for a while, I'm currently up at 40 SEK/month; I think I was higher at the end of last year. So I'm getting there but not there yet! If you're in Sweden and you need a solid cellphone subscription plz see this.
6. Update website infrastructure.
Nope, not this one either, it's one of those things I'd hoped to get to this month but as usual shit got in the way.
I must do this eventually. It's non-negotiable. Currently one of the plugins I have installed doesn't work with the framework I'm using, and the number of unsupported plugins will surely grow this coming year. I aim to get to this soon, yet without incentive I assume it won't become a priority until it's absolutely essential to secure further sustainability of the site...
7. Cold showers every day.
I skipped a day again, whilst up North, this autumn. The water was getting hella cold (5-6°C?) and I caught a cold - potentially covid - and didn't feel like it'd be good for my health to keep it going.
There's no shower there. The lake is it. The morning air's cold too. I think it was raining that first day. Cold rain. It was not very inviting.
And as last time I skipped a day this too turned to more than a day, and it definitely impacted my mood and motivation for some time to come. Probably impacted my long-term immune system negatively too, since I've had a cold a month for three months straight now, starting with the one I had here! I started taking showers half-assedly when I got better - sometimes I'd skip them if I wanted to sleep in, but after the second cold I'm back to it being a daily necessity - no excuses - and I do feel better.
I didn't stop taking showers when I caught my third and final cold of the year either, and if I hadn't been eating candy and partaking in tiresome Christmas celebrations I believe I'd have battled off the virus in record time with this routine. Just don't take too cold showers when you're sick, and I'm sure it does speed up recovery too.
TLDR: I missed a month or so, and it sucked. The other eleven months went well. I'm back at it.
8. Write something every day.
Have I...? I'm not sure. I probably have. I have a lot of creative writing streams in parallel. My blog, the hundred word site, my diary, NG, various other notebooks and pads and post-it's...
I can't vouch for this one 100% but I'm pretty certain I've managed to write at least 99% of all days this year.
9. Get healthy.
I wanted to be able to by the end of the year jog at least a Scandinavian mile (10 km), and do ten consecutive pull up's at any time.
I'm currently sick, so I can't test the one mile run, but pull up's...? I can't even do one properly. -_- FML man. Remember that site? It was a pretty good site, maybe it's still out there.
But my goal to get in - and stay in - proper shape, this year, has definitely not been accomplished. It was good this spring, and summer.
Not so much at the time of writing.
I'm a part of a little incremental improvements club to further motivate me with things like this, and one of my goals for this month was to initiate a one-month-free gym membership too. Of course I didn't get to that either. My other two goals in my latest resolution post there were to get through the goals here, and to get to the track one day and see how far I could run.
I didn't get to that either. Caught a cold instead.
So conclusively, how did I do? Two out of nine accomplished, with another two almost accomplished, and a couple in progress...?
That's not so bad. To make progress you must stay positive so that's not so bad, come on now.
I can do better though.
Some of these are just repeats on the previous, but they need to be done, so here we go...
I've also learned that it's easier to accomplish something if your goal is precise. If you know exactly what you're trying to do. So here we go...