Inktober #29 - Keep Going

Aw yeah, it's the final stretch! And life's still a mess but... let's get it!

I'm stepping! Life's both depressing and hectic
Visiting a chiropractor to straighten me out
But it won't straighten out my mind, won't erase my doubt
Won't give me purpose, won't get me about, I need some...

More clout! I need confidence
I'm entering a phase of life where I care less
Where I'm fearless, where I'm more intent
But still hesitate with every step, and get careless

It's not a good combination, it's a bit
I want to rock but with each one I trip (and roll)
I gotta lot of old demons haunting me still
But I live for the life and the thrill, so what

If you haunt me! I flaunt my demons
I wear them on my sleeve, sleep on 'em when I sleep
I know they won't ever leave, they're a part of me
So I draw from their energy and start to be

Creative! And greater than I've ever been!
Embrace the art but don't let it win!
Enjoy the dark but don't let it in!
It's a start, till I get back in my head again...

Vent a little when you feel tethered
Keep it together like a house of cards
Live large but don't park in a dark garage
And sink into the grit and the concrete

Get a grip! Like the Swedish man Cim!
Who grips a hundred K like he's lifting pins
I don't want to be that size, I really want to slim
But I want his motivation! I want to win!

James Heart my inspiration teacher!
Give me good beats sir! I'll speak to 'em discreet:
Get the fuck out of your seat, stand up on your feet
And live your life! Don't you mind me...

I slowly come to terms with reality
I appreciate a plant or a chair on a balcony
Used to be a lone wolf now care about family
And after lunch now clean the kitchen pedantically

I manage to seem like I manage
Put on clean clothes, go to work, get savage
Never go to bars, never drugged, never hammered
Up early by the PC with a coffee and banana

And every October like clockwork:
Get back to this challenge and jot a lot of words
I love collabing with the NG fam, you my band
Hope we never disband, though it's a lot of work

I go berserk some days, tired from work some days
Never sleep enough but it's OK my liege
Till Halloween when my metaphorical demons scream
Through the screen... can I keep the leash?

Hell YES! I'll keep going till I'm out of breath.
Never doubt, never cloud, just sound intense.
And stress less when I'm in this routine
Someday I'll make something big of myself, I still dream

Competition though is so saturated
If everyone makes tracks and their track's the greatest
Everyone's so good at what they say and do
Who am I to jump in with a wave or two

Till the amounts amount and you lose count
And the little water droplets are an ocean
Speak your shit and drip drip till you're BIG big
And your flow's intercoastal

I'm not good at puns, I'm not good at boasts
But I have my fun, and if I hook I hope
I'm a catch something and I don't mean flu
Just a bas or trout: or a good review

Keep going even if you reach no one!
I reach a few people, some peeps still zone in
I'm homely but travel a bit away from the homeland
Just to see the world before my casket's closing

Why do I go back to the morbid prosing?
I'm like a Norbit in orbit; the world's not roses
It's like Thandie Newton, crushing me like a few tons
But somewhere in her there's love too, and a huge one

Wave your wand dude and go shoot some Super 8
Sit in your Supra and chew some grapes
If you don't have a Supra maybe make a new deepfake
It's the future! The new school is great

It teaches you how to cheat and lie but also
Feed a prompt if you can't feed Malawi
I'll be damned if AI is the future I need
NGL though I'm tempted to let it write some rhymes for me...

So I can close my eyelids... but no! I'm not folding! I'm still that dude! I keep going! Until I'm huge!

I do have a good life and things to lose
It's not all black like a broken neck on a half-pipe
And every Inktober when I step in I get mad vibes
I'm building up slowly! Just like a stalagmite

Overtime I'll make the dopest rhymes!
I will hone my craft until I tow the line!
Until I break the mold, either that or till I'm aged and old!
And totally forget vocal control, but I hope!

It won't ever come to that I want to power through this draft
And keep crashing the party here until I'm eighty!
With JamesHeart's music in back of this trail blazing!
Mixtapes later! For now it's new playlists!

Face reality and don't let it fade!
It's what you make it! It's marmalade!
It's sugary and unhealthy but tasty too!
Do what you want to make with it if you know what's best for you!

KEEP GOING!
LIKE YOU GOT SOMETHING TO PROVE!
OR SOMETHING TO GROOVE TO!
THIS BEAT IS YOU!