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Devil 9

Devil 9
If only i could find a piece of mind …
Truth to chersih, hate and perish …

About :

The whole story started out as a daydream with me as the main character. It’s a whole different place based on reality, i built pieces together to form a whole new theory to life and this world. Step by step it gets further away from the truth we know and new perspectives keep popping up. it is inspired by much anime, games and weaknesses in my real life and is based very much on me.

In my mind i have allready reached the 5th book, and i am in process of writing down the first chapters on my computer now. A chapter at a time …

Book I – The real world
CH00 – Prelude [1]
CH01 – Introduction [2]
CH02 – This is me [3]
CH03 – A life with no goal [4]
CH04 – Selfesteeme
CH05 – Strength
CH06 – Motivation
CH07 – Freedom
CH08 – Reason
CH09 – Dead end

Book II – No peace of mind ( coming 2006 )
CH00 – Prelude
CH01 – The Meaning
CH02 – Stronger and stronger
CH03 – Hidden wisdom
CH04 – Hidden truth
CH05 – True friends
CH06 – Science
CH07 – Allchemy
CH08 – Warfare
CH09 – A journey without end

Book III – Forsaken Dimensions ( coming 2007 )
CH00 – Prelude
CH01 – Rampage
CH02 – The war
CH03 – Overtaking
CH04 – Dead population
CH05 – Death
CH06 – My nightmare
CH07 – Hellish Realms
CH08 – Forgotten Empire
CH09 – Roots of evil

Book IIII – Unbreakable dreams ( coming 2008 )
CH00 – Prelude
CH01 – Immortality
CH02 – War of mind
CH03 – A broken world
CH04 – Shattered Dimensions
CH05 – Another planet
CH06 – Mars Underground
CH07 – River of lava
CH08 – The Legend
CH09 – God
Book IIIII – Realm of the unknown ( coming 2009 )

Chapter 00 – Prelude

Dark was the night and the moon was bright. The mist gliding swiftly over a bed of rosebush. The silluette of a tree slowly gliding through the night as the moon shifted it’s positions.

I sat ontop of the second floor roof with my dark shadow resting behind me, staring out into the darkness as if I could see any activity in the distance. Everything was pitch black. The street below was empty and all the houses around were dark, everyone was asleep. Except me. For a moment it felt like the whole world was dead and I was the only survivor, struggling to live through a dark age where all signs of life had faded and only in the deep black sea remained lifeforms smoothly creeping through the cold water. A faint muffle and my dads snoring woke me up from my dreams and brought me back to reality. Clouds slowly covered the moon and the bright light dissapeared. The silence rang through my ears like churchbells and I examined the tiles beside me on the roof. They were old. There was thick moss growing in some places and they were withered by rain and age.

A small breeze came to disturb the silence and for a moment removed the ringing in my ears. Then it moved on to the new block and the silence settled once again. In 7th grade I had once performed the stupid act of shooting a soft air gun right next to my air, and the ringing hadn’t stopped since. Sometimes I would forget about it and when my surroundings were loud i couldn’t hear it at all, I guess I had gotten used to it. Silence bothered me though.

Suddenly i screamed, i screamed as loud as i could. I screamed as long as i could. I let out all my rage, hate, fear, all the feelings hiding inside me. A bloodthirsty, highpitched roar echoed through the silence. I don’t know why i screamed, sometimes I would do small things to give me motivation and to state that I was still alive … like throwing something at the wall. It made me feel like I had courage, like i ment something, like I wasn’t just living this life for nothing, that I could do something with my life. That was important to me. I hadn’t had the courage to throw many things in the wall, once I threw my toothbrush … and I was really happy after that. Gave me a temporary feeling of meaning.

Lights started turning on in the buldings surrounding me and I quickly crept back in through my window into my soft fluffy bed. I didn’t have the courage to stay standing out there on the roof in the middle of the night, even though i would have wanted too. I closed my eyes and went back to sleep …

Chapter 01 – Introduction

6:59 in the morning, I lay in my fluffy bed feeling sad for some reason, waiting for my alarm clock to start ringing so that I could turn it off and get out of bed. I had been lying there, half asleep, for 2 hours and I had been fully awake in the beginning, the cold air gliding through my room curling the furniture in coldness. Now I was tired and half asleep, almost falling asleep, shivering, thinking over my life again and again, still reaching no clearness in its meaning. The alarm clock finally rang after what felt like a whole lifetimes worth of waiting and I turned it off, stepped out of bed and got ready to go to school.

I stood in the small bathroom for 3 hours, staring into the mirror, trying to define the face that I saw staring back at me looking so confused. I missed the first lesson, and then I missed the second one as well and I left my trance so that I wouldn’t miss the third. I stepped down the stairs of our semi-spiraling staircase one at a time, one thought a step. Put on my huge shoes and my big black winter jacket with a clouded mind, opened the door and stepped outside with no more wisdom to find.

I walked along the wide steet with no sidewalks towards the busstation, it seemed to have rained during the night, for a short time while I was asleep and the pavement was coeated with a thin layer of water. The birds were silent and the atmosphere was heavy, there were no people outside and no cars either. I didn’t live in NYC though, I lived in Sweden, in Bro. There were no people or cars here. For that I was happy, I had never been very social and i had allways disliked big crowds and big crowded places. They gave me a dim illusion of what klastrophobia might be like, and though the noise did block out my annoying tinnitus it wasn’t much better. Music was my life and the noise of big places did not move in the friendly rythmetic patterns that i liked to hear.

The fiery leaves swirled around my feet, rotting away after their short and meaningless lifes. I arrived at the busstation just in time, seeing the red bus approaching in the distance. It stopped infront of me and the double doors opened letting out a disgusted sigh. There were a couple of other people sitting on the bus and the back was empty so I quickly made my way through the bus as it started moving and banked myself in the backseat. The bus moved slowly towards new locations, occasionaly stopping to pick up new passengers or to let out old ones that had been riding for years. Ouside the foggy glass trees brushed past in a looping pattern, I kept philosophizing through the short trip and when we reached the school I almost forgot to get off the bus.

I ran around the bus and started walking through the parkinglot in deep thoughts. Thoughts so deep that I walked a lap around the entire school building just to clear them out of my head. I didn’t have the time to get my books from the locker and I was to caught up in my thoughts to even consider the idea. I entered the class room in the middle of the teachers introductory speech about todays education and sat down on my chair. There I sat, I sat and thought, and did not listen to a single word the teacher said. I thought about why I was here, what I was doing here, who I was, who I would want to be, why I was me, what I should do, why I should do what, how I should do it, what would that matter.

I stood up. I slammed my fist ontop of the desk as hard as I could, it broke in half with a crunching laugh and I shouted, “WHAT THE HELL!”. The teacher was in the middle of a speech about violence in society, but had now stopped talking and just stared at me as if I was an alien or worse. I looked around the room, all eyes on me, and i saw the big windows at the end of the room pointing towards the school èntre. I didn’t think, if I did I probably would have stopped myself, I just ran right at them provocative monsters and i smashed right through.

Chapter 02 – This is Me

Bob Axell, 16 years old, 180 cm, 83 kilos, student, studying to become nothing, living to do nothing, eating to live, living to eat, living to collect, collecting will destroy my life. I had to do something, I had to do something to keep my life from being wasted, I had to start living before it was time to die. Those thoughts had allways haunted my mind before, but I had never done anything about them, now it was time to do something about them.

Noone was home when I walked back into my house. My mom was out shopping groceries, my sister was at the university and my dad was at work. I stomped up the stairs and sat down infront of my computer. The endless anime downloads were running at 147 kilobyte per second and the mozilla firefox browser took half a year to load. I searched google for the basics of php, opened up a 58 page tutorial and sat infront of the computer for 4 days in a row with no food or sleep. My family came home and went to sleep, then went to work and went back to sleep. On the 3rd day my teacher called and wondered if i was sick or something and I explained my lifetime decision, to quit school. By the time I was done I knew everything.

Chapter 03 – A Life with no goal

Continuation Coming December 20. Only on cyberdb.org 😛